Alta Bates Nitty Gritty

My dearest John Why do sometimes I look for you? Will the pain of your absence ever lessen. I hope you have seen your wonderful niece. I see her looking past me and wonder if she sees you, in all your wonderful blue feeling happy for the moments of joy she brings me. They are so rare these days. Times I feel envious you no longer have the burden of the gravity of this world, but grateful I feel you helping me stay tethered and able to stay. John, you are missed. I love when you visit me in my dreams. Cannot believe it has been thirteen long years. You will forever be loved and missed. Love your Mom