Friday, March 31, 2006
The other day I was feeling pretty terrible. A few has expressed concern, please don’t worry, while it is tough to get through this period of my life, I know I will. About a week ago I had a middle of the night epiphany. I have been complaining about my sugar binges for almost two years. Then I realized that my idea of a binge is so far off what a real binge is that I decided it was time to cut myself some slack. For example my idea of binging is a pack of Sugar Babies or a doughnut, not a quart of ice cream. Once night I felt so ashamed that I ate two helping a Lucky Charms…this does not make a binge. My grief therapist has been trying to tell me this for a while, that I am too hard on myself and it is true. It will take a long time to get through losing John, on the other hand why wouldn’t it? So to make this very short, I am doing much better, feel more at peace than I have for a long time.
