Alta Bates Nitty Gritty

GRRRRRRRRRR.

I should of never said anything about being a good sleeper. Never should of mentioned how lucky I am not to have sick and expensive cats. I should of never counted my blessings that cancer did not run in the family. When will I learn to keep my mouth shut and just appreciate what is?

Just woke up from one of the worst night's sleep if that is really possible. Mostly what up writing this morning is most the dreams were about being lost, going the wrong way and having to cross a piece of ocean that just leads me to a bad neighborhood. I have the last few months have had repetitive dreams in a town with a college that is too hard to navigate and I end up going the wrong way on a steer sometimes in a car and it turns out it is walking path or a dead end. How much of this anxiety is just everyday life? How many others are lost even without the loss?

Christmas is around the corner. Scott and I still are lost no new traditions have emerged. I mentioned to Dee if sheand Scott want to decorate I would like that, especially since it is their official first holiday together. Gives me hope life goes on in the right direction even if I feel lost